Mos def, thanks for the link.

I liked it until I tried AutoHotKey.

Then I converted to that.

Being woke remains a good thing.

It means being aware of societal challenges that exist and the historical context in which we live.

The alternative is to bury ones head in the sand and say, “Everything is okay, question nothing.”

I am thankful I am not simple enough to fall for the new monthly conservative slur in attempt to supress social awareness and change. It’s coming. The slurs are a silly game for the simple minded.

Yeah, it’s an anxiety / self-esteem thing I suspect. I’m working with medical outside of work, but I’m in a country with poor healthcare support and basically nil mental health support so we’ll see how that goes. I already have a significant amount of medical debt from going to the doctor for a stress-related vision loss… medical debt which I just ignore because I felt that a ten-thousand dollar bill for seeking medical help and getting tests was stupid so I refuse to pay or interact with the debt-collectors. For the record, the outcome of this 10k bill was, “Idk, doesn’t make sense, you’re discharged after we monitor you overnight.”

Anyway, healthcare tangent aside, I am too hard on myself. Meditation is the main thing I’ve found that helps.

Your thoughts definitely help, new perspectives are invaluable. I just have my one.

Ahh, I see. I had no idea. I’m not from a programming background originally but fought hard to get into a programming job from a closely-related field. The way our team uses them is to justify our contracting support, “Look at our developers, they did X points! You should contract more work to our company!”

So if point estimation is that poor, maybe I should stop agonizing over adding points to a task… it always feels like I’m broadcasting that I can’t solve a task when the points go… 5… 10… 15… 20… 25… etc.

Who creates these tasks? Anyone can, most of the existing tasks were created by people I’ve never met, sometimes people no longer with the company, sometimes people on a different development team, the tasks get assigned to the team working on “the product” that we support and then are handed out.

Alright, I never thought about the daily meetings like that, probably because of the context with which they started. It started because the guy who manages the points doesn’t develop or understand software, he just reports progress of the team via points to the contract-host-company (we’re all contractors on my team).

I’m not involved in any planning, I just get assigned stuff. As far as estimating how large the bugs are, that would be me, but I’ve only arrived working on this new code base three months ago so my estimates would be random guesses since I don’t understand the larger context of any of the jobs, nor how the moving parts fit together. So what I do is take a job, then just add two points every day, one of my tasks is well over thirty points at this time.

I’m not sure how task difficulty is determined or if it is at all? It seems to be more that they chose these bugs just because they make sense for a new team member to get working on something, but that’s just a guess.

I’m a contractor, so the senior devs on the team dig through the backlog and hand out tasks from that usually. They don’t seem like very important tasks, just usually have been open for a long time, current main tasks have been open two years and three years respectively before assigned to me.

Thank you for you PoV. I may respond more thoroughly when I’m less moody / exhausted. I feel like I’d just be a crybaby right now, and I am really trying to avoid that.